This post is to close a chapter.
It’s the chapter of our home for the last 5 years. The home that changed so much for us. The home that brought us both incredible blessings and challenges.
A few of you that follow me on Instagram may already know about the changes for this TIDBITS crew, but I wanted to be sure all my readers were aware as it will effect the content I am able to share here for a time.
To sum it up, we have listed our home for sell, moved into a rental home and are currently looking for property where we can look towards our dream of building a home together from scratch . . . just how we want it.
You see, Kevin (or as we call him here, “Mr. TIDBITS”) and I both grew up with land – lots of land. His childhood revolved around farming and animals and my surroundings revolved around a gravel pit and heavy equipment. But we were both free to roam and explore among all the accomplishments set by the hands of our hard working, entrepreneur parents. We have forever craved more land for our own children, and a quieter country style of living.
But the thing is, we LOOOOOOVE the town we live in and never want to leave. It is a beautiful rural country town, nestled into majestic Rocky Mountains, and filled with the kindest most down to earth people you’de ever meet. We take pride in our one stoplight and gas station. While we’ve loved our time among wonderful next door neighbors and subdivisions, we are ready for some room to breathe. This hunt for just the right property may take us some time, because we have boxed ourselves into the little town as our only option at the moment.
We left our home rather abruptly. We’ve watched for a place to go so we could put our house on the market, but finding a place that wasn’t a dump and fit our space needs and budget was hard to find. When the rental home we are in now became available, we snatched it up quick.
While the rental is comfortable, clean and has many things we’ve never enjoyed (like a walk-in pantry and closet), it will most likely never feel like us. It is dark, poorly lit, and very very brown – quite opposite of my style. I find myself with no desire to do much of anything to the space, especially since all our nice belongings are still at the other home being staged for selling purposes. The homeowners have made it clear that no changes are to be made, even down to holes in the walls.
My poor creative mind has to be hushed often as I realize exploring ideas and changes are futile. As we go back and forth from our home we are selling and the rental, our hearts ache still. It’s hard to leave a place you put so much blood, sweat and tears into. I don’t often attach myself to materialistic things, but this home changed our lives so drastically, I wanted to capture one last goodbye. I knew my dear dear friend and talented photographer, Sandy, was the one to do it.
We even had to find other homes for the pets, which was the cause of many many little tears. (No pet policy in the rental).
As I reflect on the time we’ve spent in this home, I’d like to share some of the memories I hold dear. But first, I don’t think I’ve ever shared with you how we came to live in this house in the first place. It’s a story of trusting in the Lord, and taking a leap of faith . . . something which I very much need to remind myself of again as we venture in the unknown with constant disappointments and bumps in our road.
We had 3 kids at the time, and had outgrown our starter home. We did kind of the same thing, put it up for sell – but that time we moved in with mama. My husbands job was over the mountains and a long commute so we wanted to move closer to it, even though it would mean farther from family. So the urgent house hunt began, because living with mama and bringing 3 kids in tow (as much as we love each other) is a struggle for all parties . . . know what I mean.
We looked at so many homes for months and could not feel good about any of them. Many met our requirements, but we felt such an empty feeling about all of them and couldn’t figure out why.
Finally, out of curiosity, we looked at a home just a few minutes away from my mom and even farther away from my husbands work. Despite all it’s disadvantages – location, outdated, and way over our humble price point – we felt giddy excited about it and felt peace and assurance for the first time.
We were so nervous about the mortgage and gas bill. We are not ones to buy more than we can afford, and we were used to living with less, so we felt border line irresponsible for biting off such a big bill, one that would stretch us to the max to pay off each month. But we couldn’t shake the feeling of peace and assurance that it would all be okay, so we proceeded and bought the home.
My husband would always joke with people when they came into the home. He would say, she said, “I love this house, I love it, I love it, I love it! . . . . Now lets change everything.” And yes, that’s what eventually happened 😉
It too was dark and dated, but through the years and DIY’s, we brightened it up and infused the 1990’s home with charm.
It was in hindsight of this home and journey, that we remembered our initial fears and the leap of faith against all reason. Yes, our promptings were correct . . . everything was okay. Better than okay, in fact.
This home created a blogger. This home brought us extra income. This home helped us discover the talents buried inside us and unleashed our creativity.
But most importantly to me, this home has helped me inspire many others to take what they have and make the most of it . . . and that is a treasure I hold so very dear and a responsibility I take very seriously.
As a family, this home welcomed our dear baby boy – our fourth child. This home brought us closer to my Aunt and Grandma then we have been in years, a blessing for all.
This home saw me through depression like I’ve never experienced before. This home was the cozy shelter for many storms.
In here, we often welcomed many guests and celebrated life with others.
We laughed. We cried. We were strengthened together.
And as life turned out, my husband ended up with an amazing new job that fell into his lap, very close to our home. We always wonder at the miracle of that unexpected change and that we were in the right location at the right time to receive that blessing.
So, I’ll sum this up by saying this home taught me to trust in my God and rest assured that He will guide my life as I live worthy of His promptings.
We find ourselves again a little lost for direction and nervous by the lack of interest in buyers for our home. I have to just trust that the right family will come at the right time, and everything will be okay again.
Admittingly, I find myself also nervous and discouraged about what kind of content to share here that would still be helpful and inspiring to you. What is a Home Decor and DIY blogger, without a home?!
I feel a bit like an Artist without a canvas. The ideas come, and I have to let them go.
I wonder how long can I go on like this before it hurts my business terribly.
Those are the fears that at times consume me, but I try my hardest to look back on our lives and remember to trust.
Now, I plan to update and share more about our rental and current projects, but this is where I would love and treasure your input as a reader. Can you think of content that you would still love to have me share and explore here?
Is there perhaps a desire for knowledge or a skill you wish to develop that I could help you with?
If you could please leave me a comment with your thoughts, I would be beyond grateful.
I do plan to slow things down while my kids are home from school, and I have a goal of getting our family pictures off my computer and into albums for my kids to actually see. I will also admit to enjoying a slightly slower pace of life in this rental, where constant big projects are not around every corner.
I try to enjoy those little things and not let myself get discouraged by feeling lost in my surroundings and I try to look forward with hope and faith.
I’ll leave you with a few more of these beautiful images, and welcome you to share with me your own experiences of walking into the unknown.
Thank you all so much for walking this journey with me, and I hope to continue to share and inspire no matter our stage of life.
It’s officially time for us to turn the page and look to the next chapter with anticipation.
If you’de like to view all the before and afters of our home and all the seasonal home tours, they can be found in one handy place HERE. Come take a walk down memory lane with me!
Thanks for reading and for being so kind and accepting of us!